PURPOSE & PLEASURE

Since COVID 19, now recovering from Breast Cancer, I’ve endure a lot. I have not travel to Kenya 🇰🇪, June 30th will be one year. I’ve had a lot of time to decide if I ever wanted to continue my work. I almost gave up many times my struggles were unbearable, and it hurt my heart when times got really tough. Every time I felt like throwing in the towel, God step in and work miracles. There were moments I lost my desire for the ministry, I was numb. I would pray asking God to please show any sign, if he wanted me to go back to Africa. One day while laying on my sick bed, all of sudden I felt my soul leaping with joy, I noticed I began to feel alive again. When there’s a desire to do something, and it’s really in your heart it can’t be move. I know for sure now, the mission work will never leave me. It’s very important to stay connected to your destiny and dreams. We were born with purpose, and I definitely get fulfillment and pleasure doing mission work. I love blessing people, and I love helping in any way that I can, if it’s possible. I know this fulfillment has to come from God, because he create me. We live in a world where people want control, and they can care less about helping others in need. I truly believe giving is a gift from God, everyone does not have the gift of giving. No one in the world is create to satisfy all our needs, because they’re in need of something themselves. Fulfillment can only come through Jesus Christ, and the only way you will find your purpose, is to have a relationship with Him. My prayer is That I will always serve Jesus with pleasure. This joy that I have only comes from God. Peace is serving, hope is never giving up, fulfillment is enjoying the journeys. ❤️🙏🏼🇰🇪

How do you know when you have found your purpose? You will never have to depend on anything to give you joy. Joy and fulfillment can only come from Jesus. We are human, and we make mistakes, God does not make mistakes, Purpose always brings pleasure, not man or woman can give you the desires of your heart. Flesh has needs, purpose has life.

INTEGRITY

I’M A WOMAM OF INTEGRITY

It’s very important to know who you are in life, and be honest and truthful in every part of your life. It is integrity that enhances every part of your life. You have to live up to the values that are important to you. When you say you are going to do something. The only way to establish something you want, you must deliver your promises. Stay focus, surround yourself with honest people, and take responsibilities. Having integrity is a positive character trait. Any time you are doing anything that, involves being a leader, you must be trusted. When you act with integrity, you can rest easier with yourself, and not live in regretting sacrificing and important part of yourself for anything. I love communication, it’s very healthy to react with emotional intelligence. With God beside me, I’m still learning many things on how to work the mission over in Africa. Thanking God for giving me the best crew ever. I’ve had some bad times in ministry, but I kept my promises to myself and I have been working hard ever since. To God I give all the Glory!!!!!!

BEAUTY

When I wake up in the mornings, as usual I feel pain in my joints. It’s been hard for me to start exercising again, because I didn’t expect the radiation to get me down like the chemo treatment did, not as worst, but it left me tired all the time. Yes, I’m a breast cancer survivor. I never complained one time. I think I cried twice in the beginning. I miss my natural hair, and wearing my weave at times. Also I’m trying to get use to my new look (breast reduction). Has you can see my hair is beginning to grow back. God has been with me through it all. The enemy even tried to put thoughts in my head, that God did this to me. God is a healer, and I know he heal me. For all of you going through the big C, you can make it, if you think positive and have the right attitude.😃It’s hard, but if you want to live, you have to pray motivate yourself, and surround yourself with positive people, and lol much as possible, when you’re not in pain.😂 . Doing cancer treatments they always gave us a paper to fill out, asking personal questions about how you feel. Things like, are you sad, are thinking suicidal thoughts, etc…. a list of many Questions. I call it the sad list, the doubtful list, the killer list. I said NO to every question for five months, I had to encourage myself. I though about stuff that made me lol 30 years ago. What I’m trying to say is, love YOU!!!!!!please love yourself, or it’s going to be hard for you to survive. I pray now in the name of Jesus that you are heal from the big C. I will say this, you will never be the same, but you will be better. Live your life to the fullness when you are heal, be joyful. We never know what tomorrow will bring. This photo of myself, I decided to make myself look beautiful, and and feel beautiful. Love and appreciate you. No matter what you see when you look in the mirror. Thank God you are ALIVE!!!!! I’m still getting use to my new ( tits )😂😂😂😂😂😂 well I said it. Byeeee😘🥰❤️🙏🏼

See u, not them

People want us to live up to there expectations, and they really believe you shouldn’t have anything in your life except what they give you. Control is and evil spirit that preys on the weak, or let’s just say they think you are weak. This year I have seen so much, and have lost so many friends, and family. And to be honest with all the stuff that’s going on, it can be down right fearful. God is not fear, so we must remind ourselves that no matter what happens, God is with us. I know everyone is not on the same spiritual level, and there are many that need guidance. I never though for one minute I wouldn’t be heal from breast cancer, I just never gave a thought to anything except praying, and asking God to get me back to my work in Kenya. In all you go through, you have to have faith in something, because it is hope and faith, that will get you through. If sickness comes on you, don’t be bitter, grace it with love, be joyful in your thoughts even in your pain. No one words will completely make you feel better, it’s your thoughts about yourself that will make you feel better. In hardship the very ones we expect to be there at all times, is the very ones, that can’t smooth out the rough edges the way we want them to. Genuine love is hard to find, why I say this, people are so into themselves and what they want, never giving there whole self. I give my whole self to everyone, that God put in my path. But it doesn’t mean you will get it back. Never make this mistake, ruining your life for anyone that’s not willing to drink from the same cup with you. All I’m trying to say is, look after yourself, and don’t focus on so much on what has been done to you. Move toward your destiny, and why you are moving forward, pray for the ones you had to leave behind, thanking God he gave you the power and strength to do it. You can’t stay in a bubble the rest of your life. SEE U🙏🏼

Beauty is on the inside of you

A beautiful life is not just looking good on the outside, but feeling good about yourself on the inside. We all know as women, It’s a task always to feel good about ourselves, when we are face with so many responsibilities through out the day. The worst is when we’re simply not appreciated by the people we love. No one should have to take any kind of abuse, and when you recognize you are begin abused, you should take a stand and get out soon as possible. We have a serious problem waiting, and waiting hoping the situation will get better. Beauty starts in you, making sure you treat yourself right. Our problem is we look for people to treat us right, but I want to tell you this will never happen. Why? It’s about control, and when you let someone control you, you lose who you are, and who you can become. Struggling to love yourself, is a challenge 24/7, you have to set aside time for yourself. Don’t let anyone take your life from you, when they’re doing exactly what they want. Be consistent about your goals in life no matter how the other person feels. Game players never change their game, they just apply pressure to see if you will quick. Fulfillment is everlasting, because you are doing the things you love to do. I’m 61, and I’m struggling to do what gives me fulfillment, because the enemy, thinks I was born to serve him. It’s so important to be connected to people that want to share your dream. Never let anyone steal your beauty, bloom with excellence, knowing you can push with prayer. Prayer gives you power, and power as strength to do all the beautiful things your heart desires. God wants you to live in JOY!!!!!!!

Recovery of my mine

I notice that my recovery from cancer was a lot easier than my mind recovery. I have found out even in sickness people don’t know how to love you, and genuinely act like they care. Let me explain, so you can understand me better. I appreciate everyone that has been praying for me. Its good to have many friends, and love ones to pray for us. If I was you, I wouldn’t Crack my brain about who is genuine or not. God can use anyone, and turn it around for your good. I often sit in my home thinking all about the craziness that’s going on in the world. We, I, you, need to spiritually stick together like glue, because at the end of the day patty words, and minerals things don’t matter. I’m asking God to do recovery on my mind. I’m not trying not to carry dead weight, after all I’ve been through. It’s a shame, in these times you would think people will have a change of heart, But they don’t. Selfishness is something I have always analyze, because it truly makes people evil. Prayer is the key to freedom and peace, peace that only the Lord can give us. Stop looking for people to rub your wounds until they’re heal. Exactly I’ve experience salt is added to mines. All the enemy wants, is to see you upset thinking they have won the battle. Just remember the battle is not yours, it’s the lords. So this short story my be a little confusing about what I have wrote today, but remember my mine is in recovery, I’ve decided I will start writing again. Has I write more, my writing will get better and and my mind will be heal. 🙏🏼 Releasing how you feel is a new start for healing in your soul. Byeeeee😘