I was born and abusive child. My life was full of disappointment, and nothing ever when right for me. I was save through Jesus Christ. My relationship with Christ has grown to be awesome, he is my DADDY! God has brought me through every thing. Being Save did not make things easy, in fact it was worst. Killing your Flash to stay in the presence of God is the worst thing you could experience. This road was stuff, standing in the gap for others, and praying for others all the time. I would cry to all the time asking God to do this or that for me. The prayers for the ministry he chose for me to do for him. I still have yet to see it come to the peak, God has shown to me in his word. So many people I prayed for there prayers as been answer over and over again. I love God there’s no doubt in my mind, that he won’t do what I have request unto him. All I have been doing for the people of God. It is still wonderful to see people being bless in the Jesus name. I have been pretty low for lots of years, growing in the word of God, while doing ministry.
      Well my life have taken a Shift. All the years crying out to God when I’m going to have JOY. I have been doing what you say, and yet, I have know joy. I was looking in all the wrong places for the joy that only God can GIVE. A week ago I got a phone call from my daughter, telling me she was going to have a baby. I was a little upset, because I will be traveling to Kenya soon. I was saying O Lord what I’m going to do I don’t have time to raise another grandchild. I have been planing this for six months. so after I said’ Lord you got this. everything is going to work out. so I was excited what was going to come, and just started telling God thank you. Now here comes the JOY! My daughters calls me, and says, mom I’m spotting. I tell her  to go to the doctors to make sure all is well. I’m praying to God please Jesus don’t let her lose the baby. I get a call hour later, my heart is racing cause I don’t know what to expect. She says to me, are you sitting down, I said yes. With these JOYFUL WORDS my daughter said to me, mom I’m having Twins. I was RUNNING all over the house. The first doctors visit, they didn’t see the other baby. All my life I really wanted to feel unspeakable Joy, and this day I will never ever forget our God as bless me indeed. He gave me double blessings. God said from now on it will be double for your troubles. I’m full of so much joy. nothing in this world will make  me fill what I felt when my daughter told me she was having TWINS. This joy I have never had. JOY COMES IN THE MORNING!!!

PSALM 66:I-2

Make A joyful noise unto God, all the earth

sing forth the honor and glory of His name;

make His praise glorious!


When we allow God, our shepherd, to guide us, we have contentment. when we choose to sin and go our way. However, we cannot blame God for the environment we create for ourselves. Our shepherd knows the green meadows and peaceful streams that will restore us. We will reach these places only by following him obediently. Rebelling against the shepherd’s leading is actually rebelling against our own best interests. we must remember this next time we are tempted to go our own way rather than the shepherd’s way.

Psalms to bring us into Gods presence……

Psalms about goodness……..

Psalms of praise……..

Psalms of repentance and forgiveness……

Psalms for times of trouble……….

Psalms of confidence and trust…….



Fear is a dark shadow that envelops us and ultimately imprisons us within ourselves. Everyone has been a prisoner of fear at one time or another fear or rejection, misunderstanding, uncertainty, sickness, or even death. but we can conquer fear by trusting in the lord, who brings salvation. if we want to dispel the darkness of fear, let us remember with the psalm writer that the Lord is my light and salvation.

We often run to God when we experience difficulties. But David sought God’s guiding presence EVERY DAY. When troubles came his way, he was already in God’s presence and prepare to handle any test. Believers can call to God for help at any time, but how shortsighted to call on God only when troubles come. Many of our problems could be avoided or handled far more easily by seeking God’s help and direction beforehand.


We all want people to like us and approve of us. However, our desire for approval can truly be met only by receiving God’s acceptance and approval of us. God told Jeremiah that before He formed him in the womb of his mother, He knew him and approved of him as His chosen instrument. when God says He knows us, He means He really knows us. This is a knowing that leaves nothing out.

i am amazed that God chose me. I do not think I would have chose myself. But God’s tool chest has some interesting things in it. He works with what the world would reject as useless and throw away as trash.

Yes, God chooses and uses what the world would reject! Was Jeremiah perfect? Absolutely not! Jeremiah was fearful, and God had to correct him about fear of people. Jeremiah was afraid of being rejected and disapproved of. God correct him about speaking negatively and encouraged him to go forward and not give up.

Jeremiah :1-8

Be not afraid of them for I am with you to deliver you, says the Lord.



Apr. 23,2010

Thank you God for giving me the love that I needed when no one else would. I’m happy that I brought myself this Bible, so that  can learn more about Jesus, our lord and savior.

Apr. 28,2010

Lord I thank you for waking me up this morning, this is the day the lord has made and I will rejoice and be glad in it. Thank you lord for your grace and mercies, Thank you lord for your many Blessings. Thank you for showing me how to love everyone in spite of how I feel.

May 2,2010

I had to ask God to cleans my soul today, and renew a right spirit in me. God I thank you I can come to you for grace and mercy. It is so wonderful that I can surrender every hurt and disappointment in Jesus name. I need more of you all the time. In church today I felt the burden of your people, there was no praise and worship.

It does not matter how we are feeling about life, God wants our Thanks and our Praise. I love to Worship God, that’s when I get to love on Him, and we share our expression for love to each other. Because He lives in me. God is the light of my life, He is life, without God,  I will surely die. Trust in the Lord He is the Golden key for joy in life.






Conflict is part of everyone’s life. How we deal with conflict is important. The more I have studied the Word, the more I have understood why Jesus is called the lion of the tribe of Judah. It means that He had a strength that was characteristic to a lion that caused Him to deal with things in a majestic way, and yet He’s also called the Lamb of God.

The characteristics of the lion are totally different from those of the lamb,yet the lord is recognized as having both qualities. Some gave us a picture of a lion and a lamb lying down together, and it reminds me that I’m supposed to be a good, godly mixture of both qualities. I never had any trouble with the lion to communicate with someone. especially concerning confrontational issues. we should first pray for God’s grace and mercy to anoint us as lion-hearted lambs. Then we should wait until we have balance in our perspective and approach.

Hasty words spoken without giving any thought to them often cause tremendous trouble. Ecclesiastes 5:2 says,  Be not rash with your mouth, and let not your heart be hasty to utter a word before God…… I believe we should not only be careful with our words to people, but also with our thoughts to God. There have been many times when I have thought out how would handle a situation, and God has let me know that is not how He wants me to handle it. We should form a habit of asking the Lord what He would do before we do any speaking or planning about confrontation.

By: Joyce Meyer




Christians have righteousness, peace, and joy available to them through the Holy Spirit. The satisfaction that we are all looking for is found inside of us through knowing who we are in Christ. Happiness come from being able to get up in the morning liking yourself and going to bed at night liking yourself, without living under a cloud of guilt and condemnation. Peace is the reward of righteousness not of money. You can have you can have all kinds of things, but if you don’t have peace, you won’t have joy. People need right relationships more than they need money. If people are going to spend their lives climbing the ladder of success, they need to be sure their ladder is lending against the right building. It is sad when people spend their lives working to acquire things at expenses of their families, only to get to that top position and find it is one of the loneliest places they could me. It is tragic to spend your life chasing something you didn’t want after all.

First Timothy 6:17 says, As for the rich in this world, charge them not to be proud and arrogant and contemptuous of others, nor set their hopes on uncertain riches, but on God, Who richly and ceaselessly provides us with everything, for our enjoyment.


I know that God hears my prayers, My faith is very strong in the lord, and he is a God that will answer your prayers. we sometimes expect that things will fall out of the sky, but that is not how God answer prayers. Be not always content where you are, because God has more for you than you can ever imagine. Faith is what it is, believing those things that are not. You must believe what ever you are asking God to do, having faith will make it happen. Now God will keep His promise, he is not a man, he will not lie. I know that my faith as been strong in the lord. Everything I have, has came from my faith walk. You must pray to God, and while you are praying, believe that the mountain can be move else where. At times it seems like what you’ve been praying for will never come to past. But it will. Keep knocking and keep seeking and the door shall be open. Prayer is the Golden Key for your present help from the lord. Without a prayer life, you are a dead man walking! Without faith you can not please God. I live my life totally depending on the lord. What may seem like a life time, is only one day to the lord. He said the our latter days will be greater. That means you will not miss out on one thing. Praise God! Always believe with your whole heart that God will take care of you. I want to bless you with these words of wisdom. Seek first the kingdom of God and all things will be added unto you. You must pray, and keep on praying, and keep on praying. God will step in and do it all for you. I want to please God with all my heart. Never put anyone before God. not your husband, not your children, not anyone. God is a jealous God.  Stay focus and rest assure that god loves you and nothing at can harm you. There is peace in the valley, let joy be in your hearts. your breakthrough is coming. My God Bless you and Keep you.

God Bless Cancer Awareness Month<3


Having unrealistic expectation of people sets us up to be disappointed. Am I saying that we should not be expectant? Of course not! we should expect the best out of people, but at the same time we must remember they are human being with imperfections.

When Jesus’ disciples disappointed Him, He was not devastated because He already knew and fully understood human nature, as we learn in John 2:25. Jesus expected His disciples to do their best, but He knew that even their best would still be imperfect.

I have come to realize that we tend to look for the perfect spouse, prefect friend, prefect job, perfect neighborhood, perfect church, and the truth is, it does not exist! As long as we are in earthly bodies we will manifest imperfection. God must have known that to be true. because He gave us instructions in His Word on how to handle people who irritate us or disappoint.

People are not perfect, and to expect them to be flawless is frustrating for everyone involved. We must learn to be generous with mercy and to sow seeds of mercy so we can reap mercy when when we need it.

We all like to plan ahead for our lives and have people cooperate with us. we want situation to go exactly the way we plan, but that rarely happens. This isn’t negative; it is truth. As believers, we have the power of the Holy Spirit to help us do difficult things and deal with human imperfections— not to make our lives so easy that we never need to use faith.

I urge you to expect good things to happen in your life. I also urge you to be realistic and realize that we all have to deal with things that are unpleasant and people who are disagreeable. Your attitude in these trying situations greatly affects your enjoyment of life. You can be realistic, walk in truth and still have a positive attitude as you deal with your own imperfections and those of people around you.


We…rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character, hope

Romans 5:3-4

Don’t try to get out of anything prematurely. let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed.

Jame 1:4 The Message

These things I plan I won’t happen right away. Slowly. steadily, surely, the

time approaches when the vision will be fulfilled. If it seems slow, do not

despair, for these things will surely come to pass, just be patient! They will

not be overdue a single day! says the Lord

Habakkuk 2:3



Grant, O Lord, on this election day

Wisdom to Thy children, that we may

Go forth to ballot boxes to choose men

who will lead us well. We come again

To the weighty hour when we delegate

Powers of decision. Nation, state,

the world, have many problems, and we would

Secure the highest and the utmost good.

With humility, with reverence, and respect

We exercise our duty- to elect

Men suited to this hour-and we ask

Divine and special guidance for our task.


I sought to hear the voice of God,

And climbed the topmost steeple.

But God declared:  Go down again

I dwell among the people.

Where there is love

There must be faith;

And where there is faith

There is peace indeed;

Where there is peace,

There must be God

And where there is God

There is a need


I have been PRAYING to God for a breakthrough concerning some things in my life.  I had been fasting for two months, two get my breakthrough, well that breakthrough has come. To God be the glory!  When we go to God in prayer, we must understand that he is there to answer our prayers. It was not easy to get what  I wanted. Every devil in hell was on my track, there was many sleepless nights, a lot of crying, and not to mention, I had to do ministry and comfort others that was going through there storm.  For about five months it has really been some ups and downs for me, but God was right there holding me in His arms. I lock myself away from everyone. God had even took the desire away to watch TV. I have not watch TV for seven months now. All I seem to do is fast, pray, read my bible and cry out to the lord on others behalf. God is working on me, so I can be a blessing in others lives. I’m  writing on this Blog to reach others in Jesus name, because I want them to know that I love them, and care about there state of mind. We must always pray for the things that we need in our lives, God will add the rest. One night I cried so bad, I was sick and tired of that devil messing around in my head, telling me that God was not going to do what I had been fasting and praying for. How can I pray like this , and still feel left out, still be afraid at night to close my eyes. Yes me, the GREAT PRAYER WARRIOR. now sobbing like a baby, pleading with GOD.  The spirit of FEAR had came upon me like never before. Remember, I had been asking God to do some things in my life. Speaking in tongues laid out the floor, crying like new born baby, asking him to forgive me for my Sins. I didn’t know what to do, I just felt lost. Then God spoke into my spirit Psalm 91. I read it until I fell asleep. And I read it for five days, through out the day. And I was  HEAL and DELIVER , from the spirit of Fear. I like would to say this, the spirit of Fear comes from the Satan, God is love and a sounded mind. For those of you that have the spirit of FEAR, please read Psalm 91. Read until it falls in your spirit.  I love the lord, he heard my cry, and he rescue me, out of the pits of  Hell.  Fear is just a game the enemy plays, to make us believe that God is not at work in our behalf.  God Bless all Of you. I pray for your health and strength in the Lord Jesus Christ. Amen!


Never believe that things can’t get worst, because they can.  You must believe that it can also get better. About three years ago I almost lost my daughter, the doctors was looking for the worst. She was in surgery for fifteen hours, a tumor had  connected to most of  her parts in  the digestive system. Now I know you are saying, but what this has to do with Cancer month, what is she talking about. I’m talking about life and death when the doctors says there’s know hope, we have  to wait an see. And then the lady comes in the room to get all the information surely to let you know,  fill this from out we are expecting your daughter to die.  You have to speak those things as though there NOT!  I told that social worker to get out of the room and never ever come back. Because God is going to HEAL my daughter.  I went to everyone that I could trust, and new that they would really pray and believe God would work. It starts with your heart first. God works through a pure heart. you must fast and pray and don’t wavier. you must believe in your heart that God  can Heal you. My daughter was in the hospital for six wks. I pray and pray and pray for God to heal her. I had know doubt, none at all. God is faithful in his word.  My faith is strong. She Even had a setback. They said, they might have to open her back up again. You have to remind God what he promise. I said to God, you promise that my daughter will be heal. I told that devil to get out of my head, get out my life, God is a God that would not lie. my daughter is Heal today, and is in great health. to God be the glory. Stay in the presence of the Almighty God, get in your secret place. and cry out to the LORD. BELIEVE IN HIM. I pray right now , that God will Heal your body, I pray for the children that are sick in there bodies. Father God hear my prayers and do your great works in Jesus name. I rest in  you knowing every need will be met. Please give them peace in the storm.  God has the power, and that power is in you. Put  the Word of God into ACTION!

You are in my Prayers, God is a HEALER


I pray for all of God’s people,  Asking Him to heal the sick and wounded. we don’t understand why life seems to cheat  us, I do know that God is in control.  He loves us very much,  in our sickness, in our wellness, and even our love ones we have lost.  God is the only one  that can give us peace in the storm.  Even in pain, and in the darkness hour,  God will bring  .joy in our life. I know you are saying, what is she talking about?  I’m saying reach out to Gods Glory and in your suffering he can remove the pain.  He has all the Power you need, and when you pray to God,  He can give you a  peace of mine, letting you know, you don’t have to be  afraid, if you BELIEVE, YOU CAN BE HEAL!  God will not go back on His Word. you must have FAITH that he can heal you.

I want to send this prayer  out to all the Cancer victims: Our Father who art in heaven, please heal the sick ones, let them know that you are able to do what they ask, if they would  have faith as small as a mustard seed. Father God, please give them the peace of mine, you are right there with them.  Father God in the mighty name of Jesus. I  pray that they come to know you are there, and you are waiting for them to call on your name. O Father I pray that they will fill your love, because when we hurt you hurt. please forgive us for doubting you. You said in you Word, we have not,  because we ask not.  I’m asking in Jesus name,  He is a great HEALER, RIGHT NOW, HEAL, HEAL, receive it, believe it, and it will be DONE IN JESUS NAME!!!!! AMEN. I love all of you, believe with  me that you will be heal. Be at peace God is with you. This is not Cancer month, this Is LIFE MONTH, JOY COMES IN THE MORNING!!


I got my letter in the mail on Friday,  letting me know that it was time for my annual CK UP, for my breast exam. Every time I use to get those letters every three months, I started praising God in advance . Because  when they cut on me the first time the doctors told me you much pray that It does not come back. I did not tell anyone at my church what I was going through. People can not help you in the time of trouble . Especially  when it’s something like this.  Now you are all alone , God  is going to test your faith. You  can not say you believe and still worry. I myself have to go get ck again, but I know God is a healer.  God is a God that never goes back on His Word. Your Faith is really tested when you are sitting in that tiny room with just the four walls looking back at you waiting for the results, wondering how you got there in the first place. I’m a witness , God will heal your body, I don’t care what the doctors say, it is God who has control over your life. You must put your faith in action, and keep standing on Gods Word. I’ve been heal from throat cancer, If God said it, it is done in Jesus name. You much walk in Faith, live in Faith, talk Faith, every thing that has happen to me in my life , it was my faith walk, only believing in Gods word, you have to rebuke your on thoughts, it starts with the mind, keep your mind stayed on the Father who is in Heaven. God loves us, It is not God that Makes us sick, God is the one that gives us LIFE.  Let’s not BLAME God. That’s saying you don believe in God. So all my prayers goes out to all the CANCER patience , and all the CANCER SURVIVOR, I decree and declare that you are HEAL IN JESUS HOLY NAME.

Love you all so much, you are in my PRAYERS, God Bless, and keep you, AMEN!